I Wonder ?

I sit there and wonder

I sit there and think

I get annoyied

I don't know if i can trust

I think.... More and More

I Can't Stop

You ask "whats wrong"

I answer with nothing.... speechless staring into your eyes

But really im thinking of you and him....Could it possibly be?

I get pictures in my head they don't go away as...... More and More fill my head

You ask again "Whats wrong"?

I reply "Nothing"

I go back to thinking....

I can't understand why i cant tell you

You ask one more time "Whats wrong"

I have to gather the courage to tell you i pause i stare into you blue eyes i open my mouth and a few words come out

"You were with him wern't you?"

You answer "Yes, why do you ask?

I sit there.... i say to you what i think what i have been seeing

You look at me in shock like i have done something really wrong..... I look down at my knees and open my ears

You say you just wanted to what was going on.... thats what you said last time

You say that its my choice to trust you.... i say i do i know i do but the real question is

Do you trust yourself?

I go back to wondering we are past it, i feel glad the pictures are gone....the thoughts....but i have to be careful otherwise i could lose you!

This peom is about Me and My lover (Read Scrambled To Find My Love) We love each other every much im always open to her. and i just hope that it lasts foreva!