Ocean Of Tears

Leaning over the fence,
I look down below.

Lie below a body of water.

Water dark and deep.

A single leaf fell from a tree into the water.

I watch as it floats down stream.

I too want to watch my life fade in the water.

No one will known I am beneath the surface.

I want to sink to the bottom, and never come up.

I think it's time for me to jump.

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I put my foot on the fence, and climb over.

Land on the ground, catch my balance.

Walk down to the river.

Look over the top, see my last reflection.

Take a deep breath, shut my eyes.

Step forward, feel the ground give way neath my feet.

Submerge my body, sink it deep.

This is where I want to forever sleep.

My heart is now drenched.

The water has caved inside my chest.

This is where I want to be put to rest.

Sinking still, not moving one bit.

Now at the bottom I sit.

Everything is dark,

my vision is a blur,

hearing has faded,

felt is gone,

memories flashed from the years,

I finally faded away...

At the bottom of my ocean of tears.