Dying from heartbreak

I lie awake in the darkness with tears gathered in my eyes....how can i accept that she won't love me anymore? she's my angel, i love her so much. why cant she love me like she use too? i wish i knew why....i lay there afraid of the night, clenching my chest wishing the pain would go away. my heart slowly suffocates as all the essence dies from within. i cry so much from all the pain, tears running from my eyes and my shirt is soaked. all these voices in my head i bang my head against the wall! i scream in torture as my heart is gasping for air!!!! AHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!FCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i feel my ears pounding and pounding and i feel as if i were falling. i feel so weak and dead, i lay there trying to gather myself. blood bursts out of my nose and soon im soaked in crimson. what the fck is going!? i scream so loudly wishing someone could hear me. HELP ME!!!!!! i scream and cry out as loud as i can, feeling helpless and i cant seem to move. my heart aching and the sorrow slowly devours my soul, my heart suffocates finally, dying and i lay limp on the floor. all the noise is gone.....you can hear no more screams.........there is nomore movement..........i lie there dead, i died from a broken heart..........................................................................................................................................................

not sure if this poem makes sense, or if it is a poem at all. i just wrote it and it helped me though. i dont care if it sucks or anything. or if it didnt follow a format or if i spelled words wrong. i jjust needed a release. so yeah, hopefully you enjoy it