Poem

I gave up my hope
and swallowed my pride
i gave it my all
and just about died
the moment i needed
the pain and the tears
the work and the struggle
after all these years
to watch my world fall apart
and i cant do a thing
taking a chance
and not knowing what to think
when does it end?
where did it start?
my life's crumbling
falling apart
where do i go from here
is there hope?
is there a cure?
trying to fight the thoughts in my head
wondering if everyone would be better
if I'm dead
cant i erase the mistakes that I've made
would thing change if i changed my ways
is this my punishment for not doing good
knowing that if i could i would
change my life and do whats right
maybe it all wouldn't end in a fight
taking no chances and showing no fear
but really thinking
where do i go from here