I owe you...

A pale ghost that's what I am;
Straying somewhere at the dead valley
Searching for a life
My life that's nowhere to be found.

It felt like I'm so invisible
Dead to some people's eyes,
Never even felt my beingness
Oh Father, am I really alive?

But not to you,
You were always there for me;
I don't know if I could even endure these,
breathe another air without you here..
And so I owe you my existence

A zombie, I consider myself as one;
Being puppeted by this silly life
Mundane, I function as a normal man
Just to say I'm living.

But no one even knows
That I'm running out of reason to live
This agony I can no longer bear...
Forgive me but this life is bleeding me dry

But not anymore,
You're the reason of my survival;
I don't know if I could even endure these,
Breathe another air without you here
And so I owe you my existence.

**the longest poem i ever wrote (i guess) just wanna dedicate it to my all of my good friends who never leave me..