I know nothing of what you went through but i agree with you feelings.......the best works in life come out of things that have a solid meaning

My heart goes out to you and your family... the truth is sometimes you cant find reason for things that happen to us... but reality is everything happens for a reason...
as much pain and anguish she must have gone thru maybe this was a sign from God...
maybe it would have been worse...
but at least she left a miracle that will carry on her beauty and who she was as a person ...
so be strong.. and keep moving on...
express yourself and things will slowly fall back to place...