Inward Abhorrence

I grew up in your eyes stared at me like I'm a stranger
When you intervene with my life I feel much anger
Afraid of being betrayed by the world's evil
I choose to stay the same in this dirty civil

Everybody who sees me observe that composure
Well; I'm like that because I understand the nature
I have learn in my life to accept being fooled
But my heart disharmony with my mind and I'm sad

They take an advantage of my generosity
When they see me smile after they've killed me
I practice my principle by stay calm
But they don't know my deep inside

They don't know the dread feeling inside my heart
When they hurt me it also got hurt then it grow
I am also now so tired of keeping it anymore
It knocks so hardly every moment of hassle

And now I know that one day my heart will talk
That day enemies will cry true friends will smile
Because every time when I live my born-with kindness
My heart keeps on asking me many questions

Why should you care for someone who don't care
Why should you love someone who don't love
Why shouldn't you kill someone who kill
Why should you stay kind to someone aggressive

Deny I can't but I must admit
The men shall get back what he gives
I will stay courteous to them for now
But I know one day my heart will talk