Depression

I did it again,
I hope it's the last,
I slit through once more,
I hope I die fast.

This pain I hate so much,
I'm tired of pretending I'm tough,
I can't take anymore,
I've been through enough.

You tell me you care,
I know that you don't,
You say it can help,
but I say it won't.

I love watching it go through my skin,
it makes me feel too good,
it feels better than anything,
better than what we ever could.

You say you love me,
please just stop it,
I can't take anymore lies,
I don't want anymore of your S***.

What is it you don't understand?
Please just leave me here to cry,
please just let me go,
and let me slowly die.

If you love me you'd let me go,
I can't handle all this pain,
I don't want to be alone,
I can't get rid of these stains.

I cry these tears of blood,
that streams down my face,
if I'm meant to be in this world,
then where is my place?

I try and do my best,
I try my hardest in all that I do,
I guess you don't care,
I guess it's not good enough for you.

I don't want to live another day,
Everynight I'm popping pills,
It's just how it's going to be,
I've figured out depression kills.

So what If I'm gone,
By then you'll already forgotten me,
I'm sorry to say it,
but this is how it's gonna be!

*This poem is very old and it sucks just like all my other poems..but I would still like to know what you all think. so if you would, please vote or comment...thanks*