I am so close
I can feel the fear from everyone who knows
You think I wont
But it's funny no one says don't
It's not just a phase
it's something I've been thinking of for days and different ways
When did it come in mind?
When people were constantly asking if I was fine
Maybe if that didn't occur to me
I wouldn't be in this place that I can't stand to be
I've realized more to whats going on and why
I realized that from what I've done I have tried
But I don't want to anymore
I want to just sit back and just ignore
Everyone who tries to help me
Because there not what I need
Maybe if they were worth 5 I'd be pleased
But their not
I just want to be forgotten
Use other things to get me through the day
Not a phone call or a talk that will make me OK
I'd rather use something that will change my thoughts
Instead of being taught
How to let things drift away
I want to depend on the 5 on the way
Instead of relying on someone everyday
Theres that or leaving everyone behind
And they'll come visit because I know I'll be forever on their mind
I just wish I could get the strength to do it
Because in the end you'll miss me but you wont admit it
