They say she'll tire of me
they say it won't last
they fill my mind with doubts
just as they have always done
these voices of despair and false hopes
i carry them with me into every relationship I enter into
they haunt me like a ghost on the edge of my sight
but weigh down on me like lead weights strapped to my back
i feel there constant pull,
sending a nausious feeling into my stomach
when i should be feeling elation
these voices of despair slowly strip away every truth i ever thought i knew
they are but my own thoughts in truth
double guessing all that has occured
double guessing all that i think and say
double guessing all of my decisions
these voices of despair weigh down on me
they feel like a mountain draped casually over my shoulders
crushing my intelligence
crushing my love
crushing my resolve
crushing all that i tried to hold dear
=) this poem isn't valid anymore but i thought it was pretty good so i'll keep it up
