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It kills me so much
that we are so far apart
your someone i truly loved
from the bottom of my heart

Its been a couple of months
Since we went our separate ways
And its hurting me more
Each and everyday

My head keeps spinning
And the tears keep coming down
I'm never happy anymore
I always have this frown

The days seem so much longer
Without you in my life
ever since you left me
I've always turned to the knife

So many nights just sitting alone
so many nights just thinking of you
cant believe myself
for doing the things i do

How do I still love you
and why do I still care
Why is it every moment
I always want you there

Why do I miss your smile
And talking to you on the phone
Why do I do those things
since you left me all alone

We had some ups
we also had some downs
but nothing this big
now my world is turned around

I'm closely giving up
and my light is finally gone
I miss you deeply
don't know where i went wrong

I tried to be the best for you
and be the best girlfriend as I could
I tried to always be there for you
but I never promised that I would

I just cant believe
that all this is real
and I'm still wondering
how you must feel

Are you happy
or are you sad
because you left me
does that make you glad

You tore me to pieces
and broke my heart
if you truly didn't want me
you should have told me from the start

So if I never hear from you again
This is my final goodbye
I hope we could remain close
and remember that I tried