Dead inside ( dead to you)

I could never possibly say to you
what i want to
look at you and receive
the little amount of respect
that you had for me
I suppose even eye contact
is asking alot

Could it be
that was really goodbye
so me leaving would
have been no different
truly despising myself
for being alive
you forgetting me could
have made no difference

understanding the emptiness
even before i tried to leave

What I'm trying to say
you could never hear
nor contemplate my apology
for one reason being
you wont be getting one

I miss you
and the mood all changes
I'm not sorry
but i miss you

you took my actions and
turned it against you
so any person in your possession
would have.
That i can relate to
but you and I
were two different people

Our thoughts and ideas will just never connect
only our past
remotely joining us to the same
line of communication
and friendship

Loosing a friend
loosing you
Taking away my reason
can you not see what you've done
Just because you can save me from one thing
doesn't mean
you can save me from myself

I thank you
And i miss you
But I'm not sorry.