Cold and Bitter

Cold and bitter, Lost and alone.
This end that Ive come to, the signs that were shown.

Stupid and selfish, Dumb and naive.
You said that you loved me, I chose to believe.

I should have listened, and taken advice.
I should have walked out, I tried to leave twice.

Wrapped up in heartbreak, Drowning in tears,
Times flying fast, through these wasted years.

I know what youre thinking, And just how you feel.
I wish I could wake up, and this wasnt real.

How did this happen? Why did you pick me?
I wish I could wake up, I wish you would leave.

I wish there was sunshine, I cant stand the rain.
I cant seem to man up, and stomach the pain.

I wish you could see, the pain that you caused,
The dreams that you shattered, the life that you paused.

I wish I could show you, the girl that you made me.
I miss who I knew, before you betrayed me.

Where is your head at? Where did you go?
Where is the real man that I used to know.

Where is your heart now, I wish I could say.
I dont know, and dont like, who you are today.

Why do you hate me? And act so damn rude.
Baby believe it, I've got nothing to prove.

You wont hurt me honey, if u act like a jerk.
Your dumb games and mean names,
that stuff just wont work.

So play on and play up, and do what you must.
Just know when mean it, you wont have my trust.

And know when you play me,
That Ill play you worse.
And know when youre crying
That you played me first.

Im not losing sleep no more,
Im not sad and blue.
Ive learned to live and love my life,
And be fine with-out you.

I wish that you could see me,
And what I have become.
Its so hard to get hurt now,
Cuz Im already numb.