If only i was her...

You would say I love you,
an mean it in that way,
You’d Smile When you hear my name,
And you’d think about me through the day,
You’d Dedicate songs or poems,
With each line pertaining to me,
If Only I was her,
If only you would see,

You’d Love talk With Me,
And Flirt With Me Like You Do with Another,
You wouldn’t be just my friend,
Or just my “brother”,
You’d be more,
You’d care more about me when I cried,
If only I became her,
A part of me wouldn’t have died,

You wouldn’t be the reason I cut,
The reason I died everynight,
The reason my tears,
Glimmer under the pale moonlight,
You would care more then you do,
You would love me like I love you,
If only I was her,
You would love me more then you do,

You’d be my baby boo,
And I’d be your baby girl,
I’d be the first thing you thought about,
When people talked about the world,
I’d be your best friend an so much more,
I’d be your hunny I’d be your love,
If only I was her,
I wouldn’t wanna live up above,

You wouldn’t say the littlest things,
That secretly make me cry,
Even when your kidding,
Them coming from you I wanna die,
You’d call me just to say you love me,
Or just to simply chat,
If only I was her,
You would have had my back.

I wouldn’t have to get jealous,
When I look and see you 2 flirting,
Cause I might show anger,
But inside baby im hurting,
I wanna be yours so much,
But you don’t care at all,
If only I was her,
You’d never let me fall,

I told you I liked you,
You replied oh me too,
Guess that was some sick joke,
Plus I don’t like I love you,
You just hurt me more,
Kill me with lightening or thunder,
The only thing I pray or think,
Is if only I was her,

Is it that she’s prettier?
Is That Why You Write about Your Love,
Is she sweeter,
Is that why you think she’s sent from above,
You realize her lies,
Yet you stay with her and give her your heart,
If only I was her,
I’d never make you fall apart,

You met her first,
You’ll always love her in that way,
You’ll always call her,
And she’ll be on your mind all day,
Not one thought will be about me,
Not one I love you in that way,
If only I was her,
That’d be one less thing I’d have to pray,

Is is because I cried in front of you,
Or wanted to call you that one time,
Is it cause I like sharing,
And love watching you rhyme,
Is it because she’s older then me,
That you just won’t let me try,
If only I was her,
I’d never have a reason to cry,

I guess im just not good enough,
Or my personality isn’t too bright,
Maybe im just a loser,
Or maybe you don’t wanna girl who can write,
All I ever wanted was to be your girl,
The one you love and wrote about,
If only I was her,
I wouldn’t wanna shout

So I guess im going to stop writing,
Cause my eyes are getting blurred by my tears,
And my hands keep on shaking,
From my fears,
So while im drowning in my tears,
And in my life I’m going under,
I only have one thought in mind,
If only I was her….

by , denysia chapman-madden