This sin

No amount of writing can change what i have done
some form of sin I've committed which for me wasn't fun
i hate myself because I'm to weak to walk away
in the end i hope i conquer this death in my own way,
but "what you do to the body it remembers" as they say,
i ask my body to forgive me for putting it through all this strife
but i can't escape what I've done in this life
i cried out for help to put an end this addiction
to find a cure to my afflictions
i opened my ears to listen but no one answered
do i give up because no one cares
put my body through no i rather just stare
stare at the stars and look to the hills for a cure
look for an answer to the reason I'm so torn
i search the ends of the world to the reason I'm bound
maybe man doesn't have an answer because it has not found?
found a reason to when this man sins his conscience drowns
what could be the answer to this question?