I am still sitting here looking in this mind,
And I think I have found what I wanted to find.
Though the truth of it all, still cloudy in my eyes,
Shows me that this isn't all just a lie.
As I slowly begin to fall,
Now I can see it all.
For you thought this was your fault,
But it's not, my heart, no longer a vault.
No passwords for you to break,
No pressure for you to take.
No codes to try and learn,
No more reason for you to yearn.
I showed you my real side,
And told you how I felt inside.
Now you know the truth that's in me,
Now I only hope you can see...
How I feel, and what I do,
Proves how much I love you.
Though my words now are so rare,
Please still know I will always care.
With ever chance I get to be with you,
I want you to know everything I do is true.
Though none of this is out of lust,
Only love, only hoping for you to trust.
For I see the look in your eyes,
Trying to hold back the tears; wanting to cry.
But it's not you fault, please don't say,
That you did this; just sit here with me till day.
Let me hold you all through the night,
For my love, as strong as my will and might.
I want you to know I will always care,
To show you I will always be there...
For you when you are down and sad,
For you when you are happy and so glad,
I want to be there and help you,
Just tell me what it is that I must do.
For I want to know the questions you wish to ask,
But will all this only become a thing of the past?
Will the answers ever become clear?
Or will they only bring sad, sorrowing tears?
Babe, I love you so very much,
Each and every day I miss your touch.
I miss the soothing sound of your voice,
But everything you do is all your own choice.
But I guess there's nothing I really can do,
To prove to you just how truly I love you.
I can say it over and over, and I'll never lie,
As I tell you this, please don't cry.
I will always love you,
I will always care for you,
I will always be here for you,
I will always be true to you.
You say everything with me confuses you,
But is it because the way you feel, or what I do?
Is it the way I make you feel, is it something you can't say?
God, I wish I knew; should I stay away??
For as you read this for a while,
I can feel your secret smile.
For you and I only know who this is for,
Who knows what else is in store.
But I ask myself, is there more I can do?
To show that my heart is for you...
But then I realize, this little bit,
These poems, these writings, all express it.
But can you feel the passion in these lines?
Can you read between all these rhymes?
To see the truth, prove that it's not a lie,
Each and every time I seem to try?
So now comes this poems final end,
Choices now: Should I keep, or should I send?
Should I hide away this final one?
Is this really the end to it, is it done?
As I read over this once again and once more,
Something's missing; sometimes I think I'm not sure...
I feel there's more that should be here,
Things that I can't express; some still unclear...
But now, I begin to open my eyes and see,
Just what this is doing to me...
Yes, I've changed, and I know you feel it,
I just wish I could control it...
For every time I read this one I try,
To hold back the tears that fills these eyes,
Cause I can feel the pain in this chest,
Maybe I should lay all this to rest.
But now, this is the last one for awhile,
Added to the collection in the file.
Of the various works I do for you.
I'll say it once more, Beautiful, I love you...
