Mourning your death

It's pouring down rain so no one can tell that i am crying I'm wearing your clothes the ones you were wearing the night before the accident
they smell just like you
i can't believe your gone
you were the one thing that could understand me
the only person that knew what i have been through
you were the only person who i could rely on because the rest of the world didn't quite understand
you were there when i needed you
if i cried you'd be there holding me, telling me it's alright
that everything will blow over and that it will all be okay
i miss you so much!, so much that i don't know how to put it in words,
the roses i gave you have now turned black and the petals are falling everyday
sometimes i think that i might aswell end my life because being without you isn't living it's pain! and it's slowly killing me
it's like an infectious disease that's growing inside of me getting bigger and bigger
hurting more with every day that goes by
My friends try to comfort me but i know they can't
and i know that I'll never be able to find another you
even though i know that it's want you would want it's what you think would be best
but as hard as I'm trying i can't
because you were special
you are special
your unique and even if i do find someone
I'm never gonna be able to love them as much as i love you
you were mine i was everything with you
But now I'm NOTHING without you!