Just a letter i wrot to the only person i loved

So you opened this anyway?
well, i cant realy say im sorry coz i know it'll only go in one ear and out the other, but if it means anything, i mean anything at all. "im sorry". (tear*)

i dont know how to say this, coz ive tryed an tryed an tell you this for so long, but yet you still dont understand?
you say you relise what im saying but yew dont,
by the sounds of things you started to give up on me? on us?

and if yew have then im sorry, i dont know what ealse to say.
matty, at one stage i thourght you were just some random i meet at a bowling ally, then you became much,much more, you became someone i loved, then you turned to be my "one", i dont know how all this came out so fast, but instently i knew that you were my 'one'. TEAR*

of cause you dont relise what im saying, your a guy an your prob sitting there thinking that im totaly up my self an that ive tryed to ignore you for the past 4 days and now it seems like im trying to crawl back to yew.

matt, i wish you well, i really do, and i hope all the best for you in your future, i hope you do well in melburn. not that you'll need any of my luck or anyone ealse's coz you'l smash them all, and i hope you have fun most of all.

so do me a favour, take the first email i sent you, print it out den burn it, into little,tiny peices, but only if your giving up?
but if ur not, do not reply to this email, do not relpy to any emails i sent you, this way it'll be easer for me to forgive an forget. forget everything, to leave the one an only who i thourght was my 'one an only'. (tear*)

help me get over yew, give up on this love, you know it as much as i do, that this is going no where, an we both no that theres other people in this world for both of us, (we just have to search 4 them)...

tear*

so matty, please just forget about everything, the last few months ever since we first meet (love at first sigt) EVERYTHING, just put it behind yew, an pretend that nothing ever happen.

i kno ppl say true friends stay an only the make belive ones go, but maybe its for the best, i mean for the both of us?

tear* i would be lieing if i said that this is easy for me coz it isnt, its killing me up inside,
im dieing inside, i fell like...well...like shit.

for the past few months my life has been shit, it went from not going to skool, fightin' wif all me friends, being hated by the persom i loved an thourght loved me bak, fightin every fuken day wif my rents, then yew came bak into my life, an now its gorn from that to living a peaceful life, going to skool everyday, having more friends then i did b4, telling the other guy to go get fuked! haveing a great time, an now i dont want that to end,

but i owe that all to you, i thank yew,
your the only one who helpd me an made me get thro it, but now i have to say gudbye, im sorry matty,but things are better this way,

i love you

xoxoxox