A friend ???

This is not a poem...more like a reach out ...

how do we know true friendship is real?
how do you know if you can't trust?
how do i know if you question the truth?

if i seat down and tell you that this girl seems fake...
you'd ask me why i even bother being her friend...

truth is i do it for my man, because she is his best friend ...
but i think she is lonely, and desperate inside, but she doesn't face the truth

she acts all non chalant, she acts like all is well ...
but in my heart i question so much, cause the feeling never disappears

i talk to her and laugh with her, because i know she is good
but i really wonder sometimes, if there is more to the unseen eye

other people talk and question but not to my face...
it makes me feel embarrassed
i feel like a disgrace...

but maybe its just me
maybe i look to deep instead of letting go
maybe she is being a real friend ... but its me holding her back

so... this little thing i wrote ... is just a ventilation ...
to tell you how i feel...how i wonder about my life decisions....

so... thank you for listening and just hearing me out ... and life will go on

hopefully... i just get married and end up happy ... and realize it was just me all along...