Battle of heart and mind;

I feel the heat begin to rise,
another day full of surprise.
i wish you were gone, so i could be free
not for today for eternity.

i keep telling myself we can make it work
but then i remember all of the hurt
i spent so many nights in tears
because of you these past years.

i hate where this is going
where ever that is, cause i know I'm going to give
i care about him i truly do
but i can't be with him because of you.

you know i love you, and i hate that you do
but i can't change what i have with you.
time changes things, but were too strong
why can't we just learn to get along.

i feel like i need to be with someone else,
learn a new lesson above anything else.
i want to go and live my life, i want to be free of this endless strife.

you make my life hard, you make me think twice
about the things that i do and what it is thats right.
you push and you pull but you give nothing back
i wish i could erase all the time that we've had

i know you will hurt me, once again in time
yet still i come back even with that in mind.
maybe if i go and be with him
I'll be able to tell if your who I'm supposed to be with

he actually cares, at least my heart says he does
he makes me laugh, and it doesn't hurt because,
when he tells me he cares, i feel like he means it,
theres no pain or hurt and i don't have to stop and sit.

believe me when i say i wish this would work,
but i know in the end its me who gets hurt.
i love that your trying and i know that you care
but i think i need him, even with you there.

please don't hate me, i had to make a choice
and i had to put an end to this horrible fight.
a battle between my heart and my mind,
and I'm sorry but Ive made this decision in time.