Love vs. Pain

I don't know why...
It makes me sad,
it makes me cry
and yet
it makes me happy too.
But it all can't
cover up the hurt
the pain inside.
I don't know
where its coming from,
so I don't know
how to stop it.

Self-loathing,
no longer anything
but truly nothing.
No more words,
false faces
and happy untrue words.

Smiles outside
storms, hatred, loathing
and rivers of tears.
inside...
the love is never,
never ending
just like the pain...