The end of your physical existance.

Waking up with a disturbing call,
driving home worrying and upset.
Was it my brother?
Could it have been the family dog?
Who knew a night of fun,
could lead to a long morning of sorrow.

Walking into the room,
seeing as if everything is fine.
Going to put up my things,
walking back out of that room,
hearing those words..
"Your father was murdered."

The tears started to fall,
pain in my chest stinging impulsively.
I think so far back now and realize,
I never said goodbye when you left.
All because I never thought this would happen to me.
Unfortunately it did,
and woke me up to reality.

I really don't cry much anymore,
but it still hurts.
One song that got me every time,
doesn't get to me anymore.
At least, not as bad as it did.

I'm not sure if you ever realized this,
but I did love you,
and still do.
Even more now that your gone,
cause I realized how much you meant to me.
I realized how much I actually needed you.
I've had second thoughts about getting married,
because of the fact I don't have a father,
to walk me down that isle,
and give me away.

You cant physically see me,
accomplish my dreams.
Watch your little girl grow up,
and start her own family.

I only hold memories,
ones that are slowly fading away.
Except for this one,
you would know it,
because every time wind is blowing through my hair,
I can feel it,
and remember it like it was yesterday.

I love you Daddy,
and no matter what..
I'll always be your first baby girl.