The first times always the hardest

I was 16 years old the first time i died.
It wasn't how i thought it would be.
There was on bright light at the end of a tunnel.
My life life didn't flash before my eyes.
Just endless darkness no air to breath.
Like that drowning you get when your underwater and you cant seem to find the surface.
You just hold your breath for as long as you can.
The water seems determined to feel your lungs.
Then at the last moment your above the surface breathing as if you were never under the water in the first place.
Maybe i'm in love.