Falling into my emptiness

I fall from the cliff that is my life. The first second after I fell I felt only fear. Now I feel nothing. Numb as my weightless body floats to the ground that is rushing up to meet me. Spinning thru the air my last thoughts drift to you. Will you be the one to catch me? Or where you the one that pushed me? I strech out my hand to the coming ground. Tears stream from my face as I finally feel fear. Not from the coming death. Not from the crushing pain. But from the realization that I am alone. That your not there for me to call out to. My body hits the ground and I awake. Sitting up in bed I clutch my chest and slow my breath. I stare at your sleeping figure lying next to me and wipe my tears. I surrender to the emptyness I feel with you and lay back down. I close my eyes and slowly drift back to the cliffs edge.