Sad tonight

If theres ever a day
When life would be fair
Tell me please
Cuz Im beginning to fade again
Its unfair
That you cant see me start to bleed

Im not talking
Its normal
Im on silent
But you dont notice

Im feeling dead again
The numbness has returned
I feel my heart breaking, even more
And Im so sick
Of this emptyness
So sick of feeling like this
And nobody even sees
Im fighting the urge to get that razor
And start to bleed

I finally got used to being alone
Now I dont miss talking to him on the phone
But I still dont feel the same
In my mind, Im struggling too run away
Cuz I promised him I wouldnt leave
And now leaving is all I want to be
Cold and paralyzed
Why am I sad tonight