He will break my heart

The walls are crumbling
And I am a mess again today
Struggling every which way
Catching his eyes then looking away

I wish I didnt have to pretend
But he wouldnt feel the same
And Im running from him
Just because Im afraid

Im walking the right road
But on it, I cant feel like home
Theres too much in my way
To make me smile today
I want him so bad
But Im scared to death
That he will break my heart