My Life

The Life Of A Lost Cause My life is hard: I've seen pain I know when I cry I have nothing to gain Pieces of my life still fall apart I've seen and had a broken heart My family hates me; I dont deny it On my arms I've cut and slit My friends save my life each day These day's its like I'm never okay Spirals of acid deep in my soul All of the lies have taken their toll I'm sick of pretending I'm alright I want to scream I want to fight All this rage from the abuse Now my guard is broken and loose Never raise your hand to me Try it again and you'll see How sick I am of all the hate Apologies come a little to late Writing always helps a bit Gets me out of an ager fit But all the pages are torn and frayed Every horror relived; replayed I've been beaten, raped, hurt and scared Lost things that can never be repaired Denied a childhood that I wanted so bad Its something that I wish I had Maybe I wouldn't be so closed and alone With murmured curses and words unknown Deep inside it's gotta be my fault I deserved each brutal assault Because I wasn't good enough at being perfect It's something I know I need to accept I'm the faulire of my family I'll never live happily I wish I had better things to say But this is how I live, day by day Disturbed, Alone, Afraid, Heartless These are just my feeling, your's to dismiss.