Nightmares

He said he loved me
but it was all lies
i loved him
enough to take me

he took me to his room
told me it wouldn't hurt
but he lied
it hurt
and i didn't want it anymore

he told me he loved me
although i knew it wasn't true
he hit me
pushed me to the ground
undressed me
and raped me

he said it wouldn't hurt
he lied

i thought i did something wrong
i must've said something
anything
wrong.

the third time
he hit me hard
knocked me to the ground
forced my clothes off
but i fought back
and thats when
he pulled out
his

knife.

he forced me
said if i didn't he'd kill me
i didn't let him
so he stabbed me in the chest
i felt the pain through my cold unforgiving body

as he noticed what he'd done he killed himself
pulled out a gun
from under his bed
and with one shot in the head
he was dead

i grabbed for the phone
and called 911
today i am alive ;

but i wish i died
for all i have left are

nightmares.