I've numbed myself before
Self-medicated to ease the pain
Ending up on the floor
Curled up in tears and blood
Coughing and crying
Clutching that bottle like a Bible
Reading into its intricacies
A glass idol
I cling to so I won't feel at all
But where has it gone
The feeling at all
Short circuited now I roam
A zombie, a machine
With a heart that can't beat
With a soul that can't feel
With a life that's gone numb
Nothing left of life within
So damn numb I swear it is killing me
But I can't know for sure.
I long to feel the pain
The misery of time and space
Keeping you from me
I long to feel the longing
The desperation
As I cling to your memory
Your eyes and your voice
And every other thing
I wish to feel the joy again
I need to feel something
What's left isn't real
Just an empty shell
Faking a real life
Just an imperfect puzzle of flesh
Put together wrong
Numb
