My life is over

Josh is gone, my life is over
He's the only one who could keep me sober
All these drugs I'm getting in
Have been my only friend

Trouble has been at my door
These jail beds have made me sore
I've met people here
None of them like you, as dear

Prison is behind me, but the lesson has yet to be taught
I'll probably be back there later to rot
He won't come back, what's the point?
In trying to stick to this joint?

Does he care?
WHY DO I CARE?
He broke my heart
And left me broken apart

Here i stand
Gun in hand
Can't you see?
This is how its meant to be

Bang!
The gun sang
I fell to the floor
My mother screamed and opened the door

Tears streamed down her face
"Oh baby, why did you do this?"
I just looked at her, and said my last words as a hum
"Tell Josh, i still love him"