Loss of a guardian angel's pain.

I hate how much emotion can't show,
Especially to someone so far away.
I hate how you mean so much,
but you can't even tell.

I want to let go of this past,
Burn it up along with the memories.
every last one would be forgotten,
even the memories of you.

I can't stop these tears from coming,
ever night when I say your name.
I can't stop these ideas,
That would give me so much pain.

I have no clue what to do anymore,
I'm tired of proving myself.
I'm tired of spilling my heart,
but these memories never go away.

Befor I could call you,
now you live so far away.
All i can say is come back home,
all you say is I'll try.

One idea left to get them gone,
but I promised you I wouldn't.
Yes I'm in so much pain to think of sin,
But don't worry I couldn't.

I long to see your face again,
to hear your voice and feel your touch.
I long to be somewhere I feel safe,
and that one place is my angel's arms.