It hurts so much to think to go back in my mind
to bring up all the memorys so far back in time
but i can't really help it no matter how hard i try
cause each time i close my eyes i see it and start to cry
it's so painful just to think back and remember all that stuff
i wish i could forget it all cause i've really had enough
i don't want to remember the fighting and the constand fear
of loseing my own life and everyone i hold dear
i don't want to remember the bad nights the ones were all you did was yell
you messed me up so much i'm still afarid when people yell you made my life hell
one memory that i remember clearly is when you pretened to die
i didn't know what to do i was only three all i did was cry
you called me a stupid b i t c h for not helping you
i'm sorry i really am but i didn't know what to do
you were really hurt you were just messing with my head
now i really do wish that you were dead
i'm a bad little girl well i'm not so little anymore
now i'm a rag doll, an iteam, a play toy, and a w h o r e
just take my brain now please and earase it for me
i'm asking , no i'm begging you this is my final plea
i need the memories to stop i don't want to remember this
if they don't stop i'm going to make have to make it
i'll cut out my heart i'll slice up my wrist
i'll do anything to make my memories not exsist
please make them go away please take them all
but if you can't do it i know it's not your fault
i'm sorry i'm not as strong as you all think yes fear is what i hide
when really i'm just a scrared little girl on the inside
