Is this my life?

What would I give
to go back and live
the life I no longer know

Id give anything
Id give everything
to turn my past
back to my today.

Because the life I live now
is not life at all
its not how life
is supposed to be

Perhaps I am wrong
Is this my reality
Was I created to be hurt

maybe Im supposed to be here
living in pain
living in fear

I cant believe
that if this torture stays
Im not meant to be this way

Because every day
becomes a new wound
that bleeds my life

Every night I rest
I live the peaceful life
that I wish I had

And every morning I wake
to begin a new day
in this nightmare called life