A place of limbo

Lower and lower
until i am numb
until i push away from everything
known.

i need to escape;
to get away.
but now there is no where left to go
my only salvations
have left me here
with no helping aid

I'm stuck in this place
of limbo
a place of numb
a place of
death

i hear the way you talk-
talk about me
how you talk to me
like i am nothing to you
it seems i am nothing
to everyone
but me

and some days
i feel i am nothing to me

and so
i sink low
hoping no one will see
because no one would understand

old scars
i wish to re-appear
making me feel a bit more
real

but this time
ill keep the blade away
and dig deeper and deeper
into my space in limbo.