Not The Season (never know)

Yes i know, everything happens for a reason.
but this isn't the right season...
She is my sister & she is autistic
Did i mention, my only sister
she is always messing with me
i do not see
why this has happened to me
Everything has to be her way
if its not, she'll so NO WAY.
i will never know what its like
to have a normal sister without a fright.
because my sister is autistic, im really close to my mom
maybe this is the reason,
but its simply not the season.
i have had a childhood basically helping with her and helping my mom.
i have learned patience, but i dont understand
why it has to be me?
will anything good happen out of this?
but like i said...
its simply not the season...