Why, Daddy?

So many awkward silences, tentative glances
As I sit and stare at your unfamiliar face
Trying to recall just one happy memory
Wondering why I feel so out of place

Watching you laugh and joke with him
It's almost like I'm not even there
Been like this for so long yet I keep trying
Trying to get you to somewhat care

Don't even know what I ever did
To make you suddenly not give a damn
Do you ever even stop and think of me
Wonder what I'm doing or where I am?

Watching you with all of the other's
My heart breaks into pieces a little more
They're not even biologically your's
So why is it them not me, whom you love so?

Why do I barely ever get to see you?
Or hear those three words, "I love you,?"
You easily show affection for them
Not for me..is it so hard to do?

Remember when I wrote that letter?
Saying everything that I felt?
Yet you didn't even pay attention
Not caring about pain that you dealt

Once said for me you'd always be here
But it doesn't feel that way anymore
How can someone who's meant to love me
Succeed in making me feel so low?

Trying to focus on all of my anger
Hurt you've caused, misery and rage
But it's so hard to stay focused
When teardrops splatter this page

Anyone at all can become a father
Yet it takes a man to be a dad
And if you're really up to the task
Why do you make me feel so bad?

All I've ever wanted is a simple hug
For you to prove you'll always be there
Just tell me what I did that was wrong
That made you decide not to care?