Daddy

I hate you so bad,
But i love you too,
I love you more,
I know thats true,
I try to forget you,
I try to block you out,
I have no memories, nothing, just nout,
I love you daddy,
But do you love me,
You say you do,
But i can never see,
Alls you do is roar and shout,
And if we do wrong give us a clout,
I want you to love me,
But i just let it be,
How it is now I don't try and make you see,
That i do want you a part of my life,
I want you out all that trouble and strife,
I want you to be like a father should,
I promise ill be better, i promise ill be good,
I pretend to be something I'm not,
Accept me for me, id like that alot,
I sit here and i hope and i wish,
That i could actually read you this,
So for now ill just sit here and ill dream,
Of that if i did read you this how it could of been.