Suicide Note To You "Heartbreaker"

Oh you see the cuts upon my wrist
Cant you see they are caused by you
Heartbreak after heartbreak
34 times to be exact
Just when I needed you you decide to leave
Leave me alone, hurt, and scared
I keep telling you I need you here
You walk away, saying I know why you broke up with me
Why yes, I know, but it doesn't make things better
You told me to stop cutting
I told you to stop smoking
I quit...
You didn't
I started again
Now you say you'll stop
It makes no sense
And it hurt so bad
To be in a relationship where you
Get hurt...
Or being in a relationship without you
It hurts to breathe and hurts to eat
I haven't eaten in a couple of days
Like I feel, I could lose a few pounds
Maybe it will make you look at me like you look at her
The skinny girl...
5'7, 115 pounds
Oh for me, I am 5'2, 128 pounds...overweight
Or am I not
Maybe it's you getting to my brain, but
After 1 year and 8 months, you'd think
You'd treat me better
Love me more
Kiss me more
Tell me I'm at least pretty, or cute
But I guess it's too much to ask for
So tonight I am asking God for my forgiveness
I need to take this blade tonight
Cut and cut deeper
Until my heart bleed you out
Until my heartbreak goes away
But I always said, I'll love you forever and a day...

*my poems aren't fully the truth about my life. I like to compare things, so don't think that everything I write is true!*