Three Simple Words.

Dear Mum,
I'm sorry, Now I'm sure I must leave.
I promise, You and our family I didn't want to decieve.
Ever since Edward left I've been nothing but a pain.
My emotions are mixed up, Washed down the drain.

I know in my heart I will never give you this letter.
Though if you ever find it, I wish everything to be better.
Never did I mean to call you those awful names,
We both shared hateful words and played mind games.

'Emily I do love YOU, Though not your personality..'
Those words shook me, Gave me a glimpse of reality.
My heart is slowly sinking, for every day is a new fight.
They might be about nothing,Still I shed a tear at night.

Mum can you tell me, Did I ever really make you proud?
Am I someone who is fading, Disappearing in the crowd.
All I ever wanted is for you to look and smile at me,
Tell all your friends 'Look thats my daughter, can you see?'

My mind tells me to leave, My hearts says please stay.
Inside I have been screaming, dying until this day.
Explain what I've done wrong...What did I do?
Mum, All I ever wanted was for you to say 'I love you'