Questioning Existance.

Once again I lay here; Breathless.
Fighting for my life and our relationship...
Holding on to both, and trying to maintain my strength.

Once again these tears; they fall...
They never stop, and neither does my mind.
Thoughts of us, what we were, where we have been.

Once again my heart is broken; completely shattered...
Trying to hide the pain, I am afraid it is too deep.
Almost unbearable; everything breaking me down.

I am almost nothing; questioning my existence...
Becoming numb, numb to the pain you cause.
Yet, I can not let go, I refuse to walk away.

Words are unspoken; promises are broken...
Nothing means a thing, it is mere imagination.
Pretend it's all fake, stop the pain.

But then I wake up...
It's not just a dream anymore,
It's reality, it's a real harsh reality.

[Not exactly sure where I am going with this. But oh well. Hope you enjoy]