Remember When?

Remember when we used to be happy and carefree?
When there was no pain, no animosity, only glee
When love was the only word on your breath
When all was as joyful as it could possibly be

Remember when you used to hold my hand?
When you were the only one that could understand
When no one else even mattered compared to you
When love was spontaneous and never planned

Remember when we got into our first fight?
When I was going to meet him later that night
When even though I told you it wast true
When you didn't believe me, not even in the slight

Remember when you threw me down?
When I smacked my head as it hit the ground
When you were to enraged to even care
When I saw your face as you heard the sound

Remember when you kept apologizing all week long?
When I forgave you, because you knew it was wrong
When we were happy again, for a while at least
When I felt as though the two of us together belonged

Remember when things started to get rocky again?
When you said that you were into drugs way back then
When you told me you just felt a little dizzy and faint
When I saw your bleeding vein when the needle had been

Remember when you told me that we could work it out?
When you said its much better than ever going without
When I only agreed because I loved you so much
When I trusted you completely, never once did I doubt

Remember when you gave me my first hit?
When I was so dizzy and nauseous I had to sit
When I started to feel like I was going to die
When you gave me too much and started to lose it

Remember when you left me there all alone to die?
When you knew this was the last time, you told me goodbye
When Tara found me and asked what had happened
When I was too high that I couldn't even reply

Remember when you never came to me in the hospital ward?
When I realized that you were the only one you ever adored
When I decided that I was strong enough on my own
When I decided that without you, my life would be restored