Not my love but my best friend

I sit her and I reminisce and I become sad.

the good times werent all that good and the bad times were bad.

I ask myself as I sit and cry,

feeling the shame in my voice as I ask "why."

I know it is my fault that I was wrong,

thats why are love never lasted a life time long.

I look back wards my best friend,

then I realized my life came to an end.

As I sat in my chair I slit my rist.

I could her your sobs and couldn't stand it.

As I look down on the love of my life,

I can see the future and I became his wife.

our marriage at the least wasn't happy or good.

Even though I hadnt planed it or I never would.

Some one is touching me as the paramedics try,

I see my best friend standing over me with tears in his eyes.

"I never told her I loved her" he screeched.

as he fell to his knees in the unlikely defeat.

"Thats why I came over today",

"She was supposed to be happy" is all he could say.

As he slammed my love against the wall

He just said "I'm sorry" and that was all.

He didn't cry he didn't care

but then I fell back from the air.

I whispered my dearest friend I love you and always will.

then my body went cold and still.