One...
I look down..and see nothing..
I'm just floating there..
waiting...to see if your gonna let me fall..
let me fall..&& never help me up..
two..
I'm holding my breath..
I'm turning purple..but i still feel so calm..
I close my eyes..&& i can remember..
all the times..u used to love me..
three..
nothing makes sense anymore..
but..i think that is how life is supposed to be..
not make sense..just jump all around..
like this poem..
four..
Your holding my hand..&& I slip..
but you do not fall with me..
I'm on my way down..
&& i know this is going to hurt..
but..did i deserve it??..
five..
"Daddy...don't leave..I love you.."..
I told you this..&& you still had the nerve to leave..
I grew up..&& I am still holding that over my head..
I'm older..and crankier..&& bitter..and so incredibly dumb..
I guess i get it from you..
six..
pick up sticks...if only it was that simple..
but it isn't..pick up sticks..is just another phrase to me..
pick up your life Maria..move on..u can do it..
but your wrong..I cant..not right now..why cant you see that..
seven..
What i would do..to go back in the past..
fix everything..&& make it seem like nothing bad ever happened..just let it disappear..into the unknown..
eight..
I learned something today..
no matter what you do...you will never think you are good enough..
no matter what..not even if someone actually begins to like you..
you will sit there wondering..what are they thinking..when you yourself cant even figure it out..
nine..
Tomorrow..will be like another tomorrow..waiting..just waiting..
holding on to what dignity you still have left..
hoping..u wont go to-wards that light..
Ten..
Are you gonna let me fall...or help me up?..
