Well who knew time would fly by so fast,
left me here with nothing left,
all I can remember is what we had,
nothing more than what was said.
Of course not every thought of mine is sad,
not always alone... not always bad.
But nowadays everything's a test.
only to leave me in the dust.
I've occupied myself, I've tried,
I've forced myself to sleep at night,
I've attempted to eat all I can,
for food my body didn't demand.
So many attempts to make it go away,
but it lingers, eventually I'll break,
I hate living if I have to be so fake,
I want everything you've taken.
I've sung countless songs,
stared at the wall till I felt blind,
I've been smiling, though it was a lie,
I've been calling, pretending I was fine.
But I'm not, nowhere close
to myself I'm completely lost,
only so much time left to keep occupied.
only so many feelings to pacify.
I had a bad feeling about this,
I had thoughts I wish I didn't,
I had regrets that didn't make sense,
I still want things I shouldn't give.
The more I give the more you take,
the more I'm left without to keep me sane,
these padded walls in my mind absorb the pain,
it's up to me to break these chains.
