I cant think..

I can't think and I can't write
I have been searching for some kind of light

You're leaving me with a knot on my throat
You're leaving me with this suicide note

Why won't you look at me the way I do
I have never been so helpless and this is only for you

I walk past you and your smell drowns me
I want you to want me why can't you see

I am smiling for you I promise I am
And my heart is beating for you I promise it is

I don't know what to do and I don't know where to go
I feel like I have been put on display for you like broken dolls in a row

This is not right and I can't seem to put up a fight
I am losing myself just to find a place in your sight