UN WANTED CHILD

Time heals or so they say,
Memories age - fade - and die away,
Time ticks - it Plays tricks,
I can't remember........ yesterday,
Feelings crumbled, jumbled,
Please! don't mumble,
Ghosts past haunt my thoughts,
Guilt lies all around,
Did you care, that I wasn't there,
Did you care, that I a child, your child,
You left me ^ there.... in despair,
Yes I remember tear stained Cheeks,
My heart still bleeds,
The night you left and gave away your son and heir,

I won't lie and no more tears do I cry,
But for years I wondered the reasons why,
Do you remember or is this a lie,
Did you not hear my cries as you withered and passed me bye,
I begged and begged,
Forgive me,
Don't leave me,
I'm sorry Mummy, I'm sorry,
Time healed,
But not the wounds inside, "Left" scared for life,

I think only now and then, of a place a time,
But your face is vague and no smell of your hair,
Sad but true and time can be cruel,
It washes away the very essence of you,
Hate has left me,
But now and then,
I still have moments when I think of you,
Of what you were,
Of what you should have been,
My mother,
My life,