The Lesson I Will Never Learn

On this day
I lost who I was
I lost my way.

I ran away
To get far from my problems
To hold my pain at bay.

Oh, I was so afraid
I fell from the grace of God
I, again made the grade.

My pain and loss was like the cold steel of a knife
Cold, cold as death, stabbing
Draining my life.

I ran into the arms of my enemy
But by then I fell into their seduce trap
That crushed the very person who was me.

I'll never heal from this gouge inside
It'll always be there
Making me wish I had died.