RIGHT HERE WHERE I LAY

Looking up at the bright blue sky

My vision clears as a tear leaves my eye

Just laying here thinking, 1,000 thoughts in my head

I want to get up but I stay here instead

My mind feels heavy and so does my chest

You've broken my heart, just like all the rest

I thought you were different but I was so wrong

You set up the games while I played along

Now I'm so hurt inside

Maybe I'll just choose to die

Maybe I'll slit my wrists right here

I blink again, a silent tear

In my mind I know I shouldn't cry

But still I do and here I lie

Staring up, wondering where we went wrong

How could you break me, I thought I was strong

My body feels cold now, more clouds float by

My breath has slowed, I don't want to try

I don't want to stop what I've already done

I've just finished your work, you've probably won

You've broken my spirit, my heart, my soul

And now I'm dying and no one knows

I did it myself but I hope they blame you

Don't tell them there was nothing you could do

Don't say I was unhappy, "She's in a better place now."

Cause you did this to me and I know someday, somehow

Someone will do to you what you did to me

And they'll break your heart, you wait and see

Maybe you'll know why I acted that way

Why I was so "*****y" and cried everyday

The reason I yelled and got all upset

The things I knew but inside I kept

After she hurts you and breaks your heart

The pain you feel will be a start

But it won't even compare to what you did to me

And now there's no way to make you see

You could have saved me, you should know not its true

Its all the little things you needed to do

You could have told me how you felt

Tried a little harder to make my heart melt

Or surprised me with something I didn't expect

You should have shown me a little respect

Instead of yelling at me, making me number two

You could have saved me from what I chose to do

You didn't even care that you were killing me inside

I couldn't take it anymore and so here I lie

It hurts now to breathe, every breath is like work

I think to myself, "I'll show this jerk,

When everyone blames him for me being dead

He wont get to laugh, but cry instead."

You probably wont but maybe you will

The sky is darkening, I'm lying so still

My arms and legs are frozen, I can't move at all

A tiny breeze starts blowing, an indication of fall

My mind wanders to my family, I should have said goodbye

But it wasn't their fault that today I chose to die

I know it will hurt them a lot to see me go

But I've just got things on my mind that they can never know

I think it's over now, I cannot hear my breath

My heart is not beating, no movement in my chest

I just hope that you tell them what you did to me

Let them know the kind of guy you are, the way it used to be

Don't leave out the part where I was a month and a half late

And you said it was just too much to have upon your plate

So instead of being happy, you said to go to hell

You beat me in your bedroom, I kicked and screamed and yelled

No one else was home, which made you think it was okay

Tell them all the reasons why I'm lying here today

There's no way that I could have done it all alone

No baby should be born into a broken home

I told you that we would figure out how to make it work

But you just kept on yelling and acting like a jerk

I said we could abort it, but that just made you mad

You hated my suggestions, you said that they were bad

So now it's all over, we don't have to worry about it anymore

My heart feels so free, it's no longer sore

No you don't scare me, I'm just not afraid

Because I am safe here, right where I lay.