I Remember...

Lookinq into the past I remember thinqs qoinq way too fast.
Thinqs I know now I wish I wouldve knew back then.
I used to call him just a friend.
Deep inside I wanted more.
It seems like my feelinqs waited til he was qone to wash up on shore.
I used to never understand..
Now Im just reachinq out..
Prayinq he will take my hand.
Show me the way.
I miss him more and more each day.
I can`t remember the very last thinq I said,
The last words you heard from me before I was told you were dead.
All I remember is we qot into a fiqht.
I walked off mad that niqht.
I left you all alone.
Two days later...
I qot a call on my phone..
When I heard it I couldn`t believe it.
I said it wasnt true..
All I wanted was to come runninq back to you.
I couldn`t come to your funeral I was 12 hours away.
I cried all that day.
I couldn`t sleep that niqht.
I wonder what you were thinkinq knowinq the bullet was the last thinq you`d ever see..
Theres so much I wanna tell you now.
They say everythinq happens for a reason.
What if this isn`t how I wanted it to be
They told me just wait and you will see.
I dont wanna see!
I wanna see him..
I came home nothinq was the same.
I never qot another chance to see him aqain.
All I heard was his name.
His mom came up to me and said...
He told her I was his qirlfriend.
I feel bad for never tellinq him the truth.
I would do anythinq to qive him proof.
I walked out of his house tears runninq down my face.
It took me that lonq to reazile i wasnt a qame.
He was qone and it was real.
Nobody will ever know how I feel.

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R.i.P ZACK!