We awake to a heavy smell of smoke gun shots every morning
And as we walk to school it's nothing new to see a couple of dead bodies on the side of the road
We Constaley take shelter under our seats as they fight outside our classroom door
This is life everyday
I notice the class is getting smaller by the hour
With others dropping out by the number
I would too but this is the most peace I get at any given time
My friends ask "whats the use for going when we can even concentrate or focus"
I asked "Why not go? have a better chance of surviving there, than them coming to our house"
I never see my dad as much, he's never around only comes around twice a year
And it's the same" we need boys, strong boys, soldiers"
It's like he's only here after my mom has a baby,
I'm the 12th child
At age 11, I already see what life has at stake for me
A house wife, only used to make boys that will become to be soldiers
If death doesn't come first
I haven't seen 3 of my other brothers in months, and 2 have already been killed
I pray that the war will end before I become married or death
I don't want to be another mother burying someone that I bought into this world
And only to be taken out by a bullet
I see the heartache in my mother eyes daily
She's only here to make a man that's either a killer or to be killed
It can't be, I don't want my life as that
Tears accompany me to sleep each night
While guns shots awakes me up every morning
